Dearest diary,

Today I told my mother that acorns come from acorn trees, not oaks. I was being serious.

Suddenly, it's 7 years ago. I can access LJ from work again!

Dearest journal,

So much has changed since I last wrote in you from work. This makes me both happy and sad. Perhaps I shall go back through the archives and truly delve into the past.

Do you remember Rasta, journal? I do. His blooming social career was so abruptly halted by vyndel.

Alas, Rasta is in a box now, buried beneath other relics of my past. When I move, I shall unearth him and perhaps bring him to the Saucer of an evening. Yes, I still go. Did you know I also play D&D now? Well I do.

Ah, I shall spend a happy day going through all my mementos. A day which I should spend hanging pictures, or putting away dishes.

For whee, I am getting a house. I close on Wednesday, dear journal. I am getting rid of the baby live oaks that came with it, and I shall be planting other, more beautiful trees, such as the magnolia and the bradford pear.

It's Friday, dear journal. I do not feel like being at work. That much has never changed.

I know I have neglected you, journal. First it was myspace- then it moved to facebook and this thing that people call "twitter". People don't write anymore, they only post snippets of things. 'Tis a shame.

I have enclosed a picture of myself, as per the old ritual.



Adieu, faithful journal, adieu.

Check out this whole article... very intriguing...

"Zoo penguin couple breaks up
By: Katie Worth
Examiner Staff Writer
July 10, 2009

SAN FRANCISCO — Someone alert Perez Hilton: Harry and Pepper, the San Francisco Zoo’s long-term same-sex penguin couple, have split up. And you
might say there’s a disreputable dame to blame.

The couple’s relationship began in 2003 and the breakup came as a shock to the couple’s zookeepers because Harry and Pepper, both Magellanic penguins, had long seemed one of the zoo’s happiest avian partnerships, according to zookeeper Anthony Brown.

The two black-and-white birds paired off when Harry, whom Brown described as outgoing, befriended Pepper, an introvert who sticks mostly to his burrow. At the time, the two were adolescents and everyone assumed they were just friends.

But soon they were nesting together. Harry would gather grass and bring it home to Pepper, who would arrange it tidily in their burrow, Brown said. Single females would come around, but both birds never seemed interested.

Last year, the pair was allowed to incubate and hatch an egg another penguin had laid.

“Of all of the parents that year, they were the best,” Brown said. “They took very good care of their chick. He ended up being the largest chick on the island.”

One could say that all seemed to be going swimmingly with Harry and Pepper.

Enter the recently widowed Linda, who has long had a reputation of sorts, according to Brown.

Several years ago, she left her longtime companion and moved in with much older Fig just hours after Fig’s partner passed away, Brown said.

“That was the fastest we’d ever seen penguins move on,” he said. “To be completely anthropomorphizing, Linda seems conniving. She’s got her plan. I don’t think she was wanting to be a single girl for too long.”

This year, within weeks of Fig passing away in winter, Harry was seen in Fig’s old burrow spending time with Linda, Brown said.

Then one day, Harry and Linda approached Pepper’s pen and confronted Pepper. Harry began attacking Pepper violently and the three ultimately had to be separated, Brown said.

Harry and Linda successfully nested this year and eventually Pepper was returned to the penguin exhibit from a bachelor pad at the Avian Conservation Center, where he quietly took up his old residence. Zookeepers and fans are waiting with bated breath to see what might happen next.

“That’s the big question,” Brown said. “It’s molting season in late July and early August, and around that time we see couples getting shaken up. It’ll be interesting to see if Harry spends any of that time with Pepper. We’ll have to wait and see.”

Dear library,

I am back in your hallowed halls. Only things seem a bit different. You're not the familiar, cozy, old-fashioned little place that I remember. Your ceilings are very high- you have track lighting- and this workstation that I am at is now called a pod. One whole side of you is windows. The ladies at the desk even tell me that it's 5 bucks to replace a lost card and that there is a thing called "self-checkout". I stare around, bewildered, and keep muttering to myself, "This is so weird."

How did I come to be here? Well, for one, you were redone. Remodeled. Your old husk is not twenty yards away, yet it might as well be twenty years away. For you are revamped now. Efficient. No homely painted bookshelves, no laminated library cards- no, you are more of an ode to Modern Architecture.

How did I come to be here? I somehow killed my operating system. I was only looking for a way for my own computer to run a bit faster, as it tends to get sluggish sometimes. Thank God for Jason and Sergio. Jason helped to confirm that yes, it was indeed dead, and Sergio is going to help me when I get my Windows Install disk- hopefully we can save all data and my computer and music/pictures/EVERYTHING will still be there for me. Yes I know I should have all of that stuff backed up. I feel like maybe this will be a good break? I tend to spend a lot of time on the computer. Not writing though... haven't done that in awhile. My emotional level is such, however, that my muse is visiting for awhile.

What to write about? I have a lot of real stuff going on and I'm just trying to find my own place in everything. Things are going good at work- my lease is up next June and I'm looking closer to the city and farther away from where I live currently. No more apartments. I don't know if I'm ready for the kind of commitment that buying entails, so I may be renting. I don't know if I'll stay here or try overseas for awhile. There are a lot of things I don't know right now.

I'm looking forward to the holidays. I'm having two Thanksgivings, one with my family and one with my birth family. Birth family wants theirs Friday NIGHT... so it's going to be a busy end of the week. I came here to do my homework but may just turn it in tomorrow. They don't have Word on here.

As an aside, it's funny how long it can take to really know a person, who they are at their core. Years and years, really. And to be disappointed and even disgusted- like the blinders are off- but it also feels like relief. And freedom. Freedom to do what? I don't know yet but I mean to find out.

So does anybody have plans to see Zombieland?

Sometimes all you have
Is the night sky
Music
And a long stretch of lonely road
Not even wanting a cigarette for company...

I went by CD exchange to see if they had Hackers- sadly, they did not. I watched it on youtube the other day but it did not quite satisfy the craving I had to watch it... so I went to Borders but they did not have it either. I did end up buying Matrix Revolutions from CD exchange since I've never seen it, figure I might as well. They have a new Graphic Novels section at Borders so I looked at the Buffy/Angel stuff and talked to the guy who was in charge of that section. Apparently Stephen King is doing his Dark Tower series in graphic novels. The artwork is stunning. Anyway, too many choices so I left to look at the other books. I couldn't think of a single recommendation my friends have made to me so I left without getting anything. Oh! I also bought the Buffy musical Once More With Feeling on CD. Hee hee... I was getting all teary-eyed listening to some of it. There's some good songs on there and I know it sounds corny but a lot of it really pertains to real life. I do like Spike's Let Me Rest in Peace the best... so I think for the rest of the afternoon I shall watch Matrix III and bum around. It's nice having the afternoon off.

Started off strange but ended up being pretty awesome. I'm also cheered by the notion that we're supposed to be having showers for the next couple of days after today and hope for some more of that fall-like weather. Jeanne invited me out to PF Changs last night and Kayda, Mike, and Patrick were there too! That was really sweet of her. Kayda got me some badass lotion and candy which went pretty quick lol. I feel like doing something today but don't know what... I guess I'll play it by ear. I do still need to give Kristal her presents. Hope everyone is having a great Sunday!

We had today. It was awesome, and I wish I wasn't at work so I could have driven around and taken pictures. Soon enough though. I'm preparing for a farewell luncheon for one of my people and that always entails alot here... farewell gift, set up monetary donations, the card, set up the lunch, and bake a cake! Plus laundry and netflix equals a pretty chill and relaxing evening.

Shall I be as waves
Coming upon your shore then?
Sometimes as fire
Sometimes as remembrance